Ongodiyedire

This is not a post about living the dream or about roses and rainbows in a marvelous city ... First I was ecstatic about the whole thing, then I wasn't, then I was again and then I wasn't... And that feeling lasted for a very long time.   I always wished I could see other countries before 30 but I never imagined it would come quicker so when I found myself out of the country for the first time last year, I was giddy about starting a new chapter of my life in 2020. It felt surreal, even my family couldn't believe that it was possible, that the world of academia opens doors and this time, it opened one in our home. So January, 14 2020 the journey began, one that would shape my experience and make me look good on paper. But it started off really bad, for my mental health. I felt myself shattering and I couldn't pick up the pieces. I mean, how would I tell my family, my friends, the people that made it possible for me to be there that I